▲The Next Minute◄

For a moment I stop trying to get a breather, I reflect and think of my next move. I wonder what's coming up next. I wonder what will happen, if there's a moment that will provide a revelation, a mark in my life. A starting point.

Will there be a defining moment?  Sometimes I feel a breakthrough is coming. I can feel that change that will initiate a fraction of the new me, I can see a long battle coming to an end, I can grasp the energy to go through, to fulfill the learning experience, apply it and truly fix the problem. My brain finds the logic, things make sense and I understand the cons and pros, the causes and the effects, how I got there and where I wanna go. 

My brain sends the signals. The energy is there. When it's all over, I will have to wait. 

Maybe I'm not ready. Maybe it'll never come. What do I know?

I look upon myself like trying to freeze time. As I ignore my emotions, in my head I know the problem has a solution, the riddle has the answer, the goal is reachable, the moment is conquerable, the dread is suppressible.

A minute holds for an eternity, it leaves a bad vibe. I need to persuade myself and try to think positively and (finally) convince myself that moment will come. Knowing that sooner or later I'll find a way, I will learn. I will have control....

It's around the corner, we will meet again.

The question is when.